mY LiFe ..... FadiN aWaY....

LouSy... Rotten .... Awful

2008-12-03T23:19:00.003+08:00

Lousy....Wretchly bad; miserable: a lousy JOB! ; I feel LOUSY...

Been a long long time that I have blogged. :) Busy busy and busy... with study..... :( and work!!!! Talking about work, this is the main reason i'm feeling so lousy.

Alot of us would be thinking should i work for money or the boss that you respects and is able to teach and guide u along your career path...

For me, I'm struggling now... :(

Just gotten a new boss. Maybe I so used to work with my ex boss that I can't really get used to him. I'm being irritated by him! The sight of him and the things which comes out of him.. makes me sick. I feeling so lousy that i don't feel like going to work.. I know that it is bad of me. I should give him more time.. BUT if one is willing to learn and putting in effort to understand the business, i will share as much as i can and endure for now.. otherwise, i will be losing my patience...

Manager who don't even ask how I do my sales, where is my sales tools, how to increase sales, what to do if encounter problems... etc etc etc... Is he a sales manager???????????????? All he need is to get us report what is done today so that he will be able to report to his boss. And he hope that we will not "send him to holland"!!!

So moving on or..... i'm feeling damn lousy...

不药而愈

2008-08-04T23:38:00.000+08:00

等你等到了冬季
雪飘进了我眼里
我试图去寻找爱情
和我们之间的关系
套上了你的毛衣
心更加冻结成冰
如果我先放弃爱情
我的痛会不会变得不药而愈
看伤心不能痊愈
我始终相信爱你的勇气
明明说好是两个人一起去的旅行
怎么剩下我一个人欣赏孤景
看伤心慢慢痊愈
我会好好地安慰我自己
宁愿相信你只是突然改变了决定
去了另一个美丽城市也等着我入境
套上了你的毛衣
心更加冻结成冰
如果我先放弃爱情
我的痛会不会变得不药而愈
看伤心不能痊愈
我始终相信爱你的勇气
明明说好是两个人一起去的旅行
怎么剩下我一个人欣赏孤景
看伤心慢慢痊愈
我会好好地安慰我自己
宁愿相信你只是突然改变了决定
去了另一个美丽城市也等着我入境
看伤心不能痊愈
我始终相信爱你的勇气
明明说好是两个人一起去的旅行
怎么剩下我一个人欣赏孤景
看伤心慢慢痊愈
我会好好地安慰我自己
宁愿相信你只是突然改变了决定
去了另一个美丽城市也等着我入境

Me, myself and I

2008-08-03T23:16:00.002+08:00

With me, myself and I, there are a lot of things for me to catch up for myself.

Resuming my study for my marketing and advertising is pretty tough. Been a long time (4 years) since I had touched a textbook and attending lectures from 7pm to 10pm. :( Assignments are the next killer with tight dateline. I'm going to go through all these for another 1 year..to get my Degree.

Work is getting worse.. been losing my motivation and passion.. It's difficult to work when things are not good at office. Moving on will take great courage.. due to the hugh responsibilities as well as the stress that I'll be getting really frighten me off. But think of it, who will get this kind of opportunity often? Should I grab the opportunity? Ans is YES, OF COS!! But still I'm struggling inside ..that is me! Sometimes, I really hate myself in term of making a decision.

I understand that I can't stop what people want to say or make their own assumption. I can't help but thinking that it was wrong of him to say about how we ended our relationship, especially to a bitch! The feeling is hurting and disappointing. It's over, don't include me in his topic. Our friend have to ask me if the story about us is true... It came to me that it is hard to accept the fact that people are talking about our past relationship. Have I really got over or I just mind those comments? I want to start everything afresh.. with my own new life..

Lastly, I just decided to change my little blackie..will be getting my white-ty.. :) within 4 days!! haha! That is fast. I'm now waiting for the stock to arrive. All thanks to my godsis for asking me and trina for giving me such a great deal..thanks!! :) Though I will be still driving a Hyundai car .. :)

Work this week toward a worthy -- but what might sometimes seem "impossible" -- goal.

Sad..

2008-07-20T14:32:00.000+08:00

"Better by far that you should forget and smile / Than that you should remember and be sad"- Christina Rossetti

舍不得

2008-07-20T00:18:00.000+08:00

第一次你陪我坐着我的手心是空空的
我知道那些简讯声你努力藏着害怕我难过
不追问到底为什么是我最后的温柔
想笑着附和说分开是好的
但我们却怎么一起哭了
我舍不得可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得只是该停了
没有我你要好好的
我舍不得最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的错了就错了
不用担心我我不爱你了
至少你记忆里的我是微笑的
亲爱的有你牵着我的那些日子
真的好快乐
我舍不得可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得只是该停了
没有我你要好好的
我舍不得最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的错了就错了
不用担心我，我走了

一个人。。

2008-07-02T21:20:00.002+08:00

一个人真的會比較快樂嗎？
還是比較多自由。。。

从皮包里抽出我们的照片
沙发要移到客厅的另一边
晚饭后你可以多抽几口香烟
已经没什么人会埋怨
晴天阴天今天又是星期天
唯一的打算是醒得晚一些
反正我不知道怎样打发时间
出门或不出门没差别
一个人
到底应该睡右边或左边
两个人
连一次争吵都值得纪念
一个人
偶尔感到寂寞再所难免
你的气味还留在枕头边
一个人
我重新适应一切不方便
两个人
不一定就成全一个世界
一个人
关灯看见记忆的横切面
没有光线
过去那些情节
更明显
晴天阴天今天又是星期天
唯一的打算是醒得晚一些
反正我不知道怎样打发时间
出门或不出门没差别
Oh~~一个人
到底应该睡右边或左边
两个人连一次争吵都值得纪念
一个人
偶尔感到寂寞再所难免
你的气味还留在枕头边
一个人
我重新适应一切不方便
两个人不一定就成全一个世界
一个人
关灯看见记忆的横切面
没有光线
过去那些情节
更明显
更明显

因为你没说

2008-06-29T23:13:00.001+08:00

看不见明天的人是我
说不出爱我你就别说
朝着你的方向走
幸福却擦身而过
爱情的背后
是一遍沙漠
阳光刺眼的让我流泪
闭上眼却看见你面孔
如果爱不是理由
我要拿什么理由
来说服自己撑到最后
在我最黑暗脆弱的时刻
我只看见你
在我最孤单无助的时刻
我只相信你
在冷夜中听风怒吼
为什么我一直发抖
因为你没说 let's love like there's no tomorrow
不要用爱抓住我又放手
如果不能全给我
就全都别给我

我恨我愛你

2008-06-25T23:23:00.001+08:00

我恨我愛你 ......

面带微笑离开你怀里
我听天由命
最后一张王牌在手里
二选一的机率
不能放纵爱你
就放过自己
爱情已经过了甜蜜期
多说也是无益
爱不爱我已经没关系
一点小伤而已
你可以很放心
我不会为了留你
假装可怜兮兮
都怪我太不争气
我恨我爱你
oh~我爱你
只是因为你是你
oh~我恨你
你有我看也看不清的小聪明
你有我说也说不完的坏脾气
你有我数也数不尽你的…
.新恋情
没关系…
我有你拿也拿不走的旧回忆
我可以一个人安静的忘记你
我恨你最后那一句
我爱你

2008

2008-06-08T18:48:00.002+08:00

A hugh change happened to me after 3 years... my life style, the person that used to be with me, environment.. I have to adapt to it.

A lot of my friends said that it is good for me. No ending, how to have a new beginning?...

I know they all meant well for me...i need time to settle my emotion and sort out of my thoughts. Life have to go on...but how...

Thanks to all my deary friends that are there for me... :) but meanwhile, pls tolerant with me for my mood swing ....

Cheers...

贺军翔

2007-03-26T12:00:00.000+08:00

My new idol!! I cant believe it too!! kekekek!!

Is all because of the drama " 恶魔在身边" that ah yong lent it to me! I watched it twice...I fall in love with him!! kao!! He is so charming!! Cute!!! .....Cool!!!!! OMG!!! It is a very very nice and cute drama though is 1 year ago production!

See he is so cute!!!! Can't stand it!! He is now shooting another new drama with Rainie!!! "exchange love" I'm waiting for it!!!

My current fav!!! OMG!!!!!

A New Year to Start off!!! 2007!!!

2007-02-23T13:46:00.000+08:00

Yahoo!!!! Is another year !!!

It is really very very very fast....been quite a long time that I blogged... =)

Alot of things happened...hope that this year will be a smooth and good year ahead for me, my family and all my dearest friends....

Happy Lunar new year to all!!

HUAT!!!

Memoirs of Geisha..a must watch movie...

2006-01-27T12:35:00.000+08:00

Check this movie out!!! It's great! I really like it alot....

Aren't she so charming!!!! OMG!

Scene of her dancing....so gracefully...

So guys, go and catch it!! =)

~~~CNY.....

2006-01-26T18:12:00.000+08:00

CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Everyone knows is spring cleaning time!! I really hate it..been cleaning everything ...and i can tell u, I have not done it all yet! Toilet will be the last area im going to clean..with all these cleaning, I'm having backache and my little finger get rough! *sob sob*

Understand how hard is for my mum to clean the whole hse!!! She had been keeping our hse clean and neat for the past...Mmmmm...many many yearss....

ya...wat more have to clean my car! Wanted to go for car polishing...but there is no slot for me! All the time slot FULLY BOOKED! =( In the end, I have to polish it myself!! Can tell u that is not an easy job! It reali can kill u man!! Cant imagine i'm going to do it again!

Nevertheless, Happy Chinese New Year to all my friends! Hope u will receive more ang bao!! =)

Cheers!

Long Long Time Ago....

2006-01-24T17:29:00.000+08:00

hey hey~! It's been a long time since i had last blogged....Guessed I was so tied up with my work and bleah bleah bleah... Thousand and one reasons....keke!!

Anyway, I had quitted mediacorp as a airtime sales...Alot of pple will have ask me Y??? Y do u want to quit? Mmmm....again, thousand and one reasons! ahahha!! Most imptly, I have found a better offer position...Maybe that will be the main reason...for those friends of mine have not heard me mentioning, u be updated here!! kekeke!!

The wonderful thing is that I'm starting work on the 6 feb....so that will be a 2 weeks of resting before I start my new job! =) Tot of going for a short trip....(been sometimes that I have not travel intensively liao!! hahah! for those who know me!) but, I gotta save $$$..

Life at mediacorp is fun and interesting...I will miss those pple in mediacorp..you gals have brighten up my days there...Would like to say a BIG thank to those that had taught and guided me along the way! THANK U! =)

I want to congrat franz..who had gotten her driving licsence and guess what! She getting her car during mar-apr!!! Cant wait to get a ride from her!! =)

Recently, one of my good frens had a rough time...hope he can get over that gal soon..and moved on...Understand you need time...take your time and we shall give u all the encouragement u needed!!

I think that's about all from me till now...can't really think of any thing i can blog...since its been a long time that i have done it!! kekek!! Ciao...

boring @work

2005-07-14T13:17:00.000+08:00

taken some stupid and silly personality test....since bored @work...

http://drawapig.desktopcreatures.com/gallery/large.asp?id=588369&p=0&hof=1&q=personality+test

StreSs SiaNzz SicKkk

2005-07-07T11:21:00.000+08:00

BirthDay BoY is askin for present!! kekek!! okie...i will review thru ur birthday list ya....12 July! So whr to celebrate? do let me know if there is ya...(if convenient -- u noe wat i mean rite..)

Is the triple "S" ~ StreSs SiaNzz SicKkk~ that makin me so arrrrggghhhhh....hard to describe that feeling...Its all resulted from work, pple and environment....Things are not goin very smoothly for me...esp @work.. Been lookin out for jobs...but u noe..im a lazy pig and it wil takes quite a while for me to touch up my resume....workload increases as times goes by...paycut...Though i always grumble and complaint on my job but it's not easy to handle this kind of job I doin...cust scold and yell at u but u got to swallow all ur pride and let them curse at u..hiaz...that is the life i have everyday....

What makes things worst is...work is so tedious and hard..but pple ard me is so ER XIN...making life much more miserable...maybe is in sale dept..pple tends to be more self center...and selfish...anyway...long ago..i already hated human...i dunoe y...suddenly i started to have this feeling ..seeing human/pple make me shunt away....jus like the negative and postive pole of a magnet!! Make me keep away from pple...shuting myself away...maybe the older you are, you wil see different kinds of pple...the more u know abt them, the more scary they are..that is how i am goin thru now...reali horrible...its been quite awhile for me...so is okie...getting used to it...dun ask me y i become like tat...for those who know i am quite outgoing last time...

All these is makin me so sick...lost in a big jungle ...dunoe which direction i shld go or take...maybe i have reached a junction in my life...is time to quiet down and have a thorough tot on wat i shld be doin now...and which path i shld go...my career...my lifestyle...blah blah...so confusing...

meanwhile, shall continue to look for a better job...A change in environment might be a good choice...

i have half day more to endure @work...hope something might brighten up my day....lets pray...real hard...

Amen.... ;P

IniTial D ~~ JaY ChoU!!!

2005-07-04T17:11:00.000+08:00

Been quite awhile since my last blog... quite busy with work and blah blah....

anyway, have u guys watched intital D??? Mus watch k!Not jus becos is my idol, jay, acting ...but is a funny and interesting movie....though is the 1st movie that jay is in...he stil as cool as wat he is in the movie...but the last part which he supposed to cry! it seems like he is trying not to smile, at the same times, trying his best to make the eyedrops in his eye to roll down!!! and also keep his cool!! HAHAHHA! Go and catch it if u have not ya!

Is about time to go hm...reali mon blues...lucky not much of problem cases!!
Smokie time!!!

Oh No!!! I'm Sick agAin...

2005-06-28T13:23:00.000+08:00

Jus back from my MC yest...stil not feeling well esp when the office seems like no ventilation...making me worse....

Got my migrain attack on sun nitz...reali bad...hardly get to sleep...
cant get to work on mon...and my eye was swollen... =(

Back to work today with tons of things to do...and boring training to attend...cant imagine i can bear for how long...praying hard that i can survive till 6pm...thanks goodness that no meeting today!

Calls keep comin in from my DID!! jus receive an email customer is complainin that he cant get me! Can all customers understand that we are manning the hotline with non-stop of calls!! Cant they jus wait...impatient customer! Irritating as well!!

Thats how my day goes ... calls coming in and goin out...customers complaining and yelling! sick of all these pple...cant they be nice...i'm jus an employee..certain things are beyond my control...only trying my best to help...if they are nasty, i reali dun feel like helping them...oops...!

*sick*tired*sianz*

AiR SuPpLy

2005-06-26T15:34:00.000+08:00

Quite busy last few days...i would say tired instead...

got to see the Air Supply Concert on last thur nite for free!! First part of the concert was quite lousy...after the third song, Goodbye, my fren fell asleep!! Ooops...

But the 2nd half was better...i would say the audience started to warm up and more responsive! Everyone was so high when they sang ALL OUT OF LOVE!!!! Esp when they get down from the stage to the audience area...everyone is dashing forward to have a good look at them...some of them even get the chance to hug them! Overall is a average one...no regret goin...though is a free tickets for me...kekeke!!

tomolo is mon...thinking of work reali makes me feel so lethargic and sianz...

goin to laze ard till nite....

FeeLiNg SiCk...

2005-06-22T16:22:00.000+08:00

Gosh! another sleepy day @work! maybe is due to the meeting up with my dear fren that is back from taiwan...chatting and tokin craps till very late....if i can rem clearly, i headed bed ard 1am+.... *Yawn*

Whole body is aching and lethargic ... virus is around me this few day @work..everybody is either coughing or sneezing away!! OMG! hope is jus my own imagination that i feeling weak and sick... =/

Wat's make me feel worst is my AUNTIE colleagues that is sitting next to me, is like a bee buzzing away the whole day with her cust!!!! Her voice is irritating and is making me very agitated!! Moreover , her hp is alway on VIBRATION MODE!!! she jus placed it on the table which creating that irritating buzzling sound when it rings!! *if u noe wat kind of sound im referring to...that irritating sound!* And she jus let it vibrates all the way ..dun even bother to ans it or shift it away! have been telling her not to do that! but she jus ignore it! Can someone tell me wat i shld do!!! maybe i shld do back the same to her? *so childish* But i cant stand it!!! I'm becoming to build up hatred towards voice and sound!! *Help* Argggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..............while i blogging now, the hp is vibrating now!!!!!!!!!!

Y some pple have to make life so difficult for others....and i feel tat if i keep goin on like tat...i will get high blood pressure...blood is alw boiling at 100 degree!!

What i shld do now is to keep my cool till 6pm..... =( and there is meeting today.... *sigh* hated it too...alw that draggy ..hopefully it'll end early....

Cool......

AttiTuDe of PpLe

2005-06-21T15:45:00.000+08:00

Another day @ work!!! draggin my feet to work as usual....cold and drizzling...such a wonderful morning to laze at bed with blanket and bloster (bo bo)...!!!! *STOP DREAMING*

Something happened at work let me realised that human are always so defensive towards themselves....Taking comments too personally....resulted hurt...
Ones got to learnt to take comments openly and accept it...i know is real hard...my working envoirnment had made me accept comments openly...jus forget it if u cant reali take it...who cares wat u think or how you feel...sad to say that...
I would say my working environment had change me to another person which I used to be...to me, some of the changes is good...but some...i think is bad....one got to learn to survive in different environment...

One of my good fren is coming back from taiwan!! he been there for half a yr...during that half year...i went over to taiwan!! wonderful place to shop and eat...trends is alw ahead and food is alw so special..!! u guys shld try goin taiwan for a trip too! shop and eat till u drop dead!! *miss taiwan* anyway i will be planning to go again..maybe different city.....ya, tokin abt my fren...goin to pick him up at airport later!!Cant wait to see wat he got for me!!!

Goin back to slog ....

WoW!!!

2005-06-20T13:21:00.000+08:00

Seeing all my friends having this blog ...makes me feel like doin it too...*sound silly* Jus out of fun that i creating one...

wkend had just passed so fast for me!!!! reali a blink! Seen the Mr & Mrs Smith on friday....overall i would say is a not so bad plot...quite funny at times .... (someone) fall asleep while watching it!!! oh my god! That is bad rite...leaving me alone trying to enjoy it myself..!! Anyway is a midnite, so...cant reali blame that person.... =p

I laze ard at hm on sat....doin all the hsehold chores..quite tired though...bump around at hm till quite late...watching tv show and eating...quite a relaxing day....actuali is tiring after doin all the chores....

And now i am at work....blogging...oopss...too tired and too sianz...dun reali feel like workin...but who got the choice....haiz...reali hated this job....
Things had not been goin smoothly at work! I becoming to hate my job scope so much that i reali dunoe wat to do with it...been telling myself to go and find another job...but u noe, i am a damn lazy and cant be bothered person...i need a good scolding b4 i will get down to anything....

been asking how long more do i have to endure all these...i might go crazy one day if i continue this way..

anyway, i am in a very HORRICHIBLE job..clearing shitty things, kana customer's ridiculous scolding, BAO SUA BAO HAI....cant imagine my job title is Account Executive where i not doin sale only..but everything!!! Pay cut is coming soon...tell me how!!!!

Cheers!